As one grapples, within... The face that shows is but a guarded representation, piecemeal if not only to prevent what one truly desires, but often to protect others as well as ones self. The contingency acts upon many levels, many minds forming one collective soul. The want mind, the hate mind, the work mind, the family mind, all have their own agenda, and at varying times command center fore, but alas all things, minds included at least in this consciousness are fleeting. It is at the moment when all minds concede from their travail, and we shun the standard common to us all as living, that you may allow your self to emerge. Unguarded desire, fleeting by all means.